My name's Tanya. I'm pretty boring for a twenty-four year old so this will be pretty short. And yes, boring.

I grew up in Surrey, BC. We moved to Burnaby, BC when I was nine. I did decently in elementary school, was bullied in high school, started skipping out to avoid the bullying, got myself into trouble on the streets, and ended up in kiddie-jail. Upon getting out I was slightly less rebellious, but still not an angel...

Until, one day, I found myself scared to do some things. Not just scared, but so fearful that I would rather cut off my left arm than suffer through the event. It started off with being scared to take certain buses, and from there became progressively worse until eventually I found myself unable to leave the house on my own, and even when out with my mother I was overtaken by anxiety. Suddenly I was more innocent than an angel. At least I didn't turn into a crackwhore?

For eight years now my life has revolved around Social Phobia. I've had my ups and downs, and some very proud inbetweens. There have been more inbetweens lately than dramatic ups or downs; this, for a social phobic, is a miracle. Unfortunately, in the eight years that I have visibly suffered I've lost all of the friends I once had, and have been forced to rebuild my life from the bottom up. (ups? bad? very! dramatic change always results in more fear. it is better to be inbetween and grow gradually than to grow overnight and fear it all again come morning)

I don't really know who I am. I can tell you that I like certain foods, prefer certain music, sleep on my stomach and love imponderables, but I can't tell you how outgoing I might be, what sort of people I get along with best, what I like to do for fun, or what I want to do with the rest of my life. I'm only now beginning to learn who I really am, after living the life of a modern hermit. Maybe I like going to concerts, or maybe I'm a camping girl. Life, for me, is a blank canvas desperately seeking a splash of colour and a touch of meaning.

Hopefully with all the changes going on in my life this will grow into something slightly less boring over time.